Defeated!: One Reason Our Decisions Don’t Stand A Chance

My decision didn’t stand a chance. I told myself that I wouldn’t do it anymore. I said that I wouldn’t put myself on sale. We agreed–me, myself, and I–that I wouldn’t go to the highest bidder.

I was tired of the cycle.

I was tired of crying alone–over and over again.

I didn’t realize then, but I do now that the decision to do better was always counteracted by my last name. In essence, my DNA carries the weight and memory of various forms of bondage. On one side, there is a lineage of strong single mothers. On the other side, there is a lineage of highly successful single women–some mothers some not. Now, this is neither a dig, nor shade, but my reality. This is a commonality. This is my normal. With this in mind, it is no surprise as to why I am highly successful in several areas but fail miserably in others. In essence, I had to look to my family to find out some reasons why.

Sometimes you are fighting an inherited battle. This battle may have been going on for maybe 2, 3, or even 4 generations, and as a result, with every person it defeated, it grew stronger. Therefore, no matter how many times you make up your mind, there is a possibility that you will find yourself in the same position time and time again. The odds have always been against you.


Kryptonite is a dangerous thing! It lies dormant until it is ready to slap the taste out of your mouth. Yet, once it reveals itself, you have the opportunity to move beyond it’s reach, but it’ll take a major commitment on your part.

Genesis 1:26-27 tells us that we are made in the image of the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. This means that we have similar mannerisms, thought processes, and moral proclivities to our Father in heaven. In the same way, we are born into a family that has a history, creed, and order of operation that can be destructive to our lives. Ultimately, just because it’s common doesn’t mean it is safe.

So, I invite you to take the first step in breaking the cyclic nature of your familial lineage that may threaten your destiny.

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The Real Reason You Aren’t Pursuing God


Following God is inconvenient and many church people don’t like to admit this truth. It is something that we all know but not bold enough to voice. Yes, we love God. Yes, we want his promises, but if we’re honest sometimes it just gets in the way of things that we would rather be doing.

I know that this isn’t a popular subject but it’s time for us to get serious if we hope to see people walk in freedom. More times than not, I see so many people come to the altar to give their lives to God and we all applaud, only to leave them alone to walk out their salvation as we turn up our noses when we discover that they’ve backslid. Maybe you haven’t even made it to the church house, though, but purposed in your heart to follow God, or make strides towards it, but for some reason never get around to it. Why?

Following God is hard. It is uncomfortable. It requires that you deny yourself daily. And, you will not want to do so. That. Is. The. Truth.

But, while it is inconvenient, it is not impossible. I was once the person who used every excuse in the book to not follow God. In essence, it was a heart issue. I didn’t know the God that I claimed that I loved, and as a result, I only talked to him when I needed help. I thought that God was a genie, and because I heard so many times that “God knows your heart,” I believed that he understood. And, he did! He understood that I only paid him lip service. He understood that my heart was far from him and that I would rather spend time with him on Sunday as opposed to cultivate a sustainable relationship with him daily.

Now, this might now be your complete truth, but the possible reason you don’t pursue God as you should is due to the posture of your heart. Perhaps, you don’t want to sacrifice your time, sleep, conversations or entertainment to develop into the person that you were created to be. Ultimately, you might not want to grow as much as you say you do!

Following God is not for the faint of heart, which is why so many people are manufacturing their own version of the gospel to fit their needs. But, the Word of God is clear. Don’t be deceived. If you want to grow, if you want to overcome those generational curses that haunt your family, if you want to give your future children a fighting chance at survival, you must spend time with God even at the cost of your comfort.

Ultimately, you really can’t afford not to do so. Just ask yourself where your passiveness has gotten you thus far.


Going to Church Does Not Guarantee Spiritual Growth

So you purposed in your heart to “get closer to God” in 2018. Great! I think that’s wonderful, but more times than not, we don’t know what that really entails. If I can be honest, when I started my journey in 2013 I had the slightest idea about where to start and what to do; however, over time I’ve learned a few things that will ensure spiritual growth. And, in this blog I’ll share them with you!

Let’s start by dispelling the myth: Going to church will NOT ensure that you grow spiritually. Ok, now that that’s out there let me explain: On the one hand, people go to church for various reasons and some of those reasons are not necessarily pure. On the other hand, for the avid church goer it is a routine to be in the house of the Lord because that’s what they learned as a child. Yet, this does not mean that they are growing! Furthermore, more times than not, Christians get caught up in serving and sometimes are so focused on the “business” of the church that they are unable to receive the Word that goes forth. This, of course, is not a dig at all, but a very real fact that those serving have to be even more intentional about growing in their own time. Now, if you don’t serve but are a pew member who takes notes but never reviews them, you, my dear, may not be growing either. I found this out the hard way. It’s normal to say, “the pastor preached a good word today” and someone ask you about it and you can’t recall. That’s because the enemy works fast to snatch the wisdom from you. Therefore, you must review those wonderful notes you took.

This leads me to my next point: You MUST spend regular time with God! There’s no way around this one. You have to become childlike in his presence by admitting that you don’t know everything but you want to learn and are willing. Now, when people say “spend time with God” this does not mean in the shower or on your way to work only. I get it, we are busy people but just like we take the time to cultivate relationships with people we care about–giving them undivided attention–we must have the same attitude with God. This effort may require that you turn off the tv,  or radio to do so, but growing requires intentionality.

I spend an hour with God daily. This means that I have to get up at 5a.m to do so, but that’s what works for me. 5a.m. may not be an ideal time for you, so you should choose a time that is conducive to your lifestyle.

So, what should you do when you spend time with God? I’m glad you asked. Here are a few practical steps that I take to ensure that I am challenging myself to grow spiritually:

  1. Play worship music: Humans respond to melody. Therefore, you should set the atmosphere by playing some worship music to help  hone your thoughts. I am more of a Bethel, Hillsong, United Pursuit type of worshipper in the early morning. So my music is really soft and calming because I want to  worship more so than praise. Typically, I join in with the music singing to God about how wonderful and magnificent he is. Because I’m a natural worshipper–that’s my favorite part of the service–I generally do this longer than most people. I just love it!
  2. Pray: Alright so this is a big one. Prayer is the vehicle through which we access heaven. Sometimes people get intimidated by the ways in which the older saints pray. You know, the ones who pray down heaven…yea…them. Anywho, I want you to know that prayer is a conversation not a dialogue. In praying, it is ok to empty yourself out before the Lord and tell him your fears, doubts, thoughts, and whatever else mat be on your mind. Go ahead and get that stuff out because it could potentially hinder you from hearing God. After you’ve said your peace, take a moment to sit in silence. Furthermore, because prayer is a dialogue, you should take some time to hear from God. Generally, people miss this step because they assume that prayer is just one-sided. However, this is an unfortunate misconception because when you take a one-sided approach, you devalue the opinion of the other person (God).
  3. Study the bible and take notes: Notice that I didn’t say “read.” The reason I believe that you should study the bible is because it allows you to engage with the text. When I first started, I would use the bible reading plans on a bible app that was geared towards a specific idea: anger, forgiveness, hope, relationships, etc. In doing this, I was also able to learn scriptural references for what I was combatting. As I grew, though, I started using the inspiration of the Holy Spirit to lead me on topical searches such as identity, lust, power etc. In doing so, I often would consult my concordance, which is a book that breaks down the original meaning of the Greek and Hebrew words. It is in breaking down certain words that I learned how to understand what the scriptures really mean. And, because I’m a natural student, I take notes on the things that I’m learning so that I can refer to them later.
  4. Read books and actively read: There is power in mentoring relationships but sometimes we don’t have the access to those who we admire most. However, several of them have released books that provide insight into their teachings and this is a way to grow. Buy their books and read them often! I have a lot of spiritual books because I don’t have the privilege of having a “spiritual mentor” at the moment, but I grow through reading their words–kind of like mentoring from a distance. And, while I read, I make sure to engage with the text. By engage I mean underlining, highlighting, writing in the margins of the book, disagreeing loudly or crying bitterly. Active reading helps you to remember the nuggets of wisdom that you may discover.
  5. Journal: This is a bit more challenging for me if I could be honest. When I journal, I write out the things that I may not have prayed about and feelings surrounding them. Sometimes, it is difficult to verbally express your cares, but it is also dangerous to keep them bottled inside of you. Therefore, in another effort to empty myself out…I journal.

A point to remember, anything you wish to accomplish will require intentionality and repetition!





How I Found My Identity in 2016, How You Can Find Yours in 2018

cropped-fullsizeoutput_682.jpeg“New Year, New Me!” is the anthem that millions around the world chant at the beginning of a new year. We hear this phrase leave the mouths of teenagers, women, men, those seeking to get into a healthier state, singles wanting to get married, or those who are looking to be single. However, rarely, if ever, do I hear people utter the phrase “I’m going to find my identity in the New Year!”

If we are honest, more times than not, the condition of our lives is reflective of the understanding, or the lack thereof, of our identity during a time of decision making. If we sit for a moment and do the introspective work that this requires, we can trace some of the most critical turns in life to a choice that either lead us astray or pushed us into destiny.

With this in mind, I think it’s safe to say that you cannot have a “New Me” if the “Old Me” is still competing for its time on the stage of your life. Sadly, we really believe that we can change the trajectory of our lives without coming into a firm understanding of who we are and why we were created. This flawed understanding guarantees another year of bad choices and disappointment but it doesn’t have to be this way.

In 2016, I was a train wreck of a person. I seemed to be drifting about through life though I had it all together on the outside. In fact, no one heard the silent screams as I smiled and pretended to be okay day after day. I wasn’t happy then and as I look back at my previous state, I can’t believe that I measured happiness based on the lie that I once built my life upon. I was searching for something tangible then, but I didn’t know that what I was looking for was the reason why I was created.

Now, identity discovery isn’t as glamorous as many pretend that it is. I would be lying if I didn’t tell you that I had some restless nights, some silent mornings, and some very intense crying sessions, but once I got through the initial shock pertaining to the condition of my soul, I was fine.

Do you want to really have a “New Year, New Me” mantra this year? Are you tired of being stuck in a place that seems to disappoint you year after year? Well you have to do the hard work of discovering your identity.

Here are a few ways to help you along the journey:

  1. Be Honest: Honesty was my hardest lesson. I was a woman who was hell-bent on masking. In fact, I masked so much that I didn’t know who I was once I started the process. Ultimately, I had to admit to myself that I believed and lived a lie that never worked for me.
  2. Face the truth: Naturally, when things go wrong in our lives we look for someone to blame. “If my mom would’ve been around more then I would be prepared,” “If my dad would’ve loved me then I wouldn’t have given my body to that guy,” “If I had money then I would go to college.” When we blame people we strip ourselves of the very power that is needed to live our best lives. While this doesn’t mean that what they did didn’t have some bearing on your life, but if you continue to give them the authority over you then you can never come from under their influence. The truth of the matter is that your life is a sum total of the decisions you made or didn’t make. It is a direct reflection of the fears and the desires you let fuel you or grip your heart. Therefore, if you are to discover your identity then you must face your truth.
  3. Include God: Since God gives us our identity, it would be silly not to ask him for guidance or even to reveal why you were created. Now, I hear several people say that they ask God things but they don’t receive an answer. It is then that I ask them were they actually listening. This may seem like a foolish question but there is a difference between hearing and listening. When you hear something it could be done unintentionally. We hear things all the time and sometimes they don’t register in our minds. However, when we want to learn information then we have to intentionally listen. Listening is an active action and not a passive one. Ultimately, we have to be tuned into God to really understand what he is saying.
  4. Spend regular time with God: This one goes hand in hand with the previous point. However, it is a bit more work on your end. And, I recommend that you do it! The reason why many don’t know why they were created is because they don’t spend quality time with the Creator. Any relationship that will change your life is cultivated through one on one time. I often hear people lament that they don’t have time to spend with God, but they spend time scrolling on social media, reading magazines, and talking to friends. It baffles me because it is ONLY in the face of the Father that you will change your life.
  5. Spend time with yourself: I actually despised doing this one! When you really think about it, many of us try to avoid this very crucial action because it can be antagonizing. When you don’t know who you are and you finally begin taking inventory of the things that you let into your soul, you will soon realize that your life is quite cluttered. And, if you hope to ever find out who you are then you must declutter the areas of your life including your soul that prevent you from living authentically you.

In essence, in order to have a “New Me” in the New Year, you must make different decisions that lead to success and recklessly abandon your former ways.