There are times when I just don’t want to continue doing certain things. You know, those times when you start to feel the pressure of a situation and you’d rather opt out than move forward. I’m speaking about the moments when you realize that you didn’t count the cost of building but started anyway. What do we do, then, when we realize that we are not invincible? How do we continue with the vision when the odds are against us?
Last week was a tough one for me. I am at a crossroad in my life where my next move is crucial. For the first time I feel like I’m playing chess. I have to think a couple of steps ahead. I have to anticipate my opponents next move. I have to be calculated, or at least try. But, my calculations all come up short. The game is down to the last two moves and the pressure is on. Will I go left or right? Should I move forward or stay? Am I too far gone to retreat? These questions and more swarm in the margins of my mind as I struggle to stay focused.
This morning I asked God for strength. I asked him to give me the power and resolve to finish the journey set before me. I asked him to help me endure the process. While at the gym he reminded me of Hebrews 12:2:
Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God (KJV).
The scripture reveals that Jesus did not enjoy his journey to the cross. He did not like being there, the feelings it produced, or the shame attached to it. He did not feel comfortable with it. He did not have peace about it and though he wanted to stop he didn’t. But, why not?
Jesus endured the cross because of the promised outcome. He went through the process to receive the ending reward. And, this is the place where we have to find ourselves when we want to give up. While the road to success or destiny might not be pretty, we have to focus on the end . We have to walk through the darkness to get to the light. We have to keep our eyes fixed on Jesus no matter what.
The reason that I became discouraged is because I started looking at the water. I gazed at my surroundings instead of looking to the sky. I started to count the reasons why things can’t work instead of the reasons why they could. I stopped believing that I was enough. I stopped looking…looking for the reward.
It is imperative that you look to God if you hope to endure your season. You cannot get so entangled with the what ifs that you lose your footing. What did God tell you to do? What did he entrust to you?
Think on these things.