These are my favorite heels! Yes a post about heels. The reason these are my favorite pair, out of almost 50 pairs, is because of the colors and the stones. I bought these shoes circa 2013 while I was visiting in Dallas, Texas. I immediately fell in love with them honestly. They are a vibrant shoe that can be seen miles away.
But, there is another reason why I love this shoe. I’ll tell you if you promise not to tell anyone.
I love this shoe because it represents my personality. I feel so unique and stylish when I strut across the street. These shoes seem to make a statement about me before I open my mouth. Another reason why I love these shoes is because I bought them at a time when I didn’t have the highest self-esteem. Yes, I wanted to be fabulous, feel pretty, and the like, but I didn’t have confidence in myself. Namely, because I allowed myself to settle for less than God had for me. In every area of my life, I refused to pay the price of becoming. This entails becoming who I was created to be.
Why you may ask? Why were you so comfortable with settling? Because I lacked identity in Christ. This may sound cliché but it’s not. When we lack identity in Christ, we lack the clearest perception of ourselves. We struggle to be better, live better, and make better choices. We become complacent because we may feel that we don’t deserve God’s best, but that’s the furthest thing from the truth.
Women, we are called to be queens. Think about Queen Esther. She didn’t have anything when she went into the palace to assume her royal position. In fact, she was an orphan–both her parents were gone and was raised by her male cousin. Likewise, though I’m no orphan in the natural, I was one in the spirit. I wandered around, ignoring God’s call on my life and living quite reckless.
But, when I saw the shoe in the store, I was drawn to it. I was drawn to its beauty and it’s difference. There aren’t many shoes in my closet that I can say the same about, but this one, I believe was picked out for me. I didn’t know back then that God was starting a process that would lead me to this place. That he was positioning me to talk these shoes years later.
Now, I can write about this purchase in retrospect because I took the time to find my identity in him. I took the time to seek him–though not willingly at first. I took the long path, but you don’t.
While I can pinpoint certain areas of my walk with certain purchases, certain thoughts, and interactions, they all go back to the spiritual walk I underwent. The identity that I lacked, and the very low self-esteem I once had. Ladies, your identity is never in a relationship, nor defined by who didn’t choose you. But, it is identified by Christ who knew you before the foundations of the world.
Your homework is to go in your closet and find your favorite heel. Identify why you like it, when you bought it, and what state of mind you were in. Then access if you’re still married to those emotions and write why the shoe is still your favorite. This simple step will help you access growth.