I took a seven week course through a book called Calling in the One: Seven Weeks to Attract the Love of Your life in hopes of literally finding “the one.” I always hear people say that they’re waiting for the one, and that they’ll be happy when they meet the one, all of that is true, but the one we are searching for is us.
Sometimes we divorce ourselves long before we realize that we’ve done it. We go seeking that companionship with someone else because we can’t find connection within ourselves. Our members are disconnected and as a result we’ve ascribed to a fractured psyche. We accept the mental and spiritual brokenness and lift up down cast eyes looking for someone outside of ourselves.
The course taught me that I was broken in the most deepest parts of my soul. It challenged me to release those people who I had held captive to my pain, I had to do the ugly work and face again, for the 3rd time. I think that’s the hardest part. I could no longer blame anyone else because I was guilty. I held on to people, my past, my pain and prolonged my struggle.
When searching for the one, I was really searching for myself. I was looking for al the missing parts of me that made me who I once was, those parts that I gave up to fit someone else’s mode. The one that we are searching for is our own wholeness. It is our inner peace, strength and soundness.
I wouldn’t have been able to find the one because I couldn’t recognize myself even though I was looking in the mirror the whole time. I was estranged, grotesque, and distorted.
It wasn’t until I did the 7 weeks of work that I recognized “the one” and decided to love her viciously. She was waiting for me to find her again. Waiting for me to listen to her dying whispers. She here now, alive and well. The one I was looking for is ME.